i read that over and i am not sure what i was trying to say!
i want to say i love you, you mean the world to me but i feel pathetic for making you my world
i didnt hang off of every word but i tried my hardest to understand each word.

i love you! i really really do!
this is what i want! and i want it for a long time more!
you are who i want! and i want you for a long time more!

... i love you!

oh man! i'm always SO nervous!

there is a lot of truth that i need to write about.
i guess i never said any of this before since i was so scared! i liked you for so long and then i didn't ever think you'd like me, out of no where you decide to!!! it was amazing! i have never been so happy! never been so loved!!!! on the topic, i never knew why you liked me... that night in your room, i hadn't even brushed my teeth yet, sick!

so now you like me, it's so overwhelming. i like you, then i love you...

... so we've been going out for a little more than a month now and i start to wonder if i ought to stop saying i love you so much because, i wasn't truly sure if i loved you in the new situation i founf myself in! i know i love you as a best friend but questions have always flown about whether i loved you in the new situation.

now its been three months and i start to ask if i like you as much anymore. then i come to the realization that i like you different. i look at you and i fall in love with you as if for the first time! i find myself not liking what i used to like so much, you depth, i like more now your extremity and unpredictability! i like it when you tell me you like me and say sweet things.

i think everything is alright and then i am proved wrong. i cried a lot but is that bad?! at least you know i care!

we get through it and i feel things are wonderful again! i have fallen in love with you again and again for different reasons! now i like being able to look at you, tell you i love you and kiss you. i like to be able to be 'grown-up' and 'mature' about the whole thing.

presently i'm unsure if liking you is what you want me to do. it's what i do but then again i think, do i? i want to know why you like me but how can i expect youto know why you like me when randomly i question myself if i still like you.

everytime i ask myself, i think about you with a lot of depth. i like you. i dont know why but then again, i dont know why we met, why we are together, why youd pick me, i dont know a lot.

'what she doesnt know is enough to fill the Sacher's new compost pit, sick a ship, set off a tidal wave, make her want to kill herself'
so i may not know a lot, i may not know what perceptive means when you call me it but i know that we make sense and i know i'll try, but from now on, i'll only try as much as you will. i want to go back to the days where i went to the locker *just* to see you!! *just* because i wanted to... it's been a long time since i went to your locker out of pure nesseccity.

i dont want you to unravle the mysteries of my life, i dont want you to solve my life problems. all i want is for you to 'show it to me again' i remember when you moved me in such a way that nothing could be better...

the only thing that could be better now, would be if you moved me the way you used to

i may not be the girl, i may not be that smart and i may not be that feminine but i want you to tell me thats all okay and that for right now, i'm the girl, and that you like it that way and want to keep it that way!!

you may not like me as much as i like you and i dont care, i only ask for you to like me as much as you used to!!!

i *do* love you!

... and once again a smile crosses my face for little more than no reason at all...

walking down the street seeing people show canadian pride, the pride of a nation i've never had pride for... astounding!

to nearly be killed by these joyous citizens, far less cool

to kiss you in the theatre, to fall in love with you all over again!
oh man!

jon davis, so so hot!!!!

today: friends, love, awe...



! let's dance!

Uncertain,
am i wrong,
in so many things...
... let's think...
'you can't love truly unless loved as well'
untrue..
...let's think...
how can i be so confident?
*me* confident?!
when will you love me as much as i do,
as much i love me,
as much as i love you?
go out with your best friend again,
even if it's no longer me.
ocean pacific...
let it remain!
quadractics,
love,
friendship,
CONFUSION!
me,
you,
certainty,
DESIRE!
scotch tape and kleenex,
all i truly understand.

i have a story for you at school.
read it.
hey, it's time to start,
never time to stop!

i'm certain,
i'm happy,
yet i'm so confused.

how can i understand your love,
when i can't even begin to understand you?
i'll stumble and fall,
on myself,
over you,
over again,
up...here i go again.

our song will never be written,
never be finshed,
until we have both passed.

people will write about us,
the romeo and juliette of new days.
true love doomed from the beginning,
twisted plot, doomed from within.

they will study us and see the unrequited love,
between you and i.
it's an outside obstacle,
it's within us.

i'll not look when you're gone,
i'll do it when you're there.
thus showing its shallow unimportance.

maybe i'm crazy,
maybe i'm right.

if there is a god,
if there is truth,
let me be right
...let's think...

i remember never worrying, and now i worry!
but i dont!
i mean i know everything will work out awesome and for the better in the end,
i guess ever since finding out you had uncertainties where i didnt know any existed,
i suppose i have felt like i have been treading on eggshells!
well no more!!

you fell in love with me once, and now 20 lbs lighter than when you first loved me, aren't i more!?
love me again kay,
but thats just it,
love me!
sure, i'll be the best person i can be because fuck, you deserve it,
but i deserve to be me and to know what you think of me. i deserve your honesty and your love...
i know you're capable of that and so much more, just show me!!

I HAVEN'T CHANGED MY MIND, US FOR ALWAYS
WHATEVER US MAY BE!

I LOVE YOU!

you know what?!
i'm not even going to think about it anymore!
i love you and this is the happiest i have ever been!!
there is going to be problems along the way, but we'll get through!
this may not be a long term commitment but its a long term relationship!

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i made up my mind, i love me as much as you do, this is never gonna change!!

ldglultnmnv<- there is no words to describe how happy i am! i'm making little random noises!! i want to jump and possibly will!!!!
holy shit!

'... cut like a diamond... a new sparkle in every new light...'
so true isn't it?! i mean, everybody will see everything a different way. and why not?! there are a million ways to look at everything! a million ways to express yourself!!


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okay so i don't know where that came from but i said it!!
see you!

... someday we'll know if love can move a mountain, someday we'll know why the sky is blue, someday we'll know why i wasn't meant for you! yah yah yah yah someday we'll know why sampson loved delila, someday we'll go dancing on the moon, someday we'll know why i am the one for you...

take a leap of faith,
jump blindly to another.
fall... fall... down.... fall...
caught by the arms of true friends, ture love...
true, genuine happiness!

... someday we'll go dancing on the moon...
.... do you want to dance....
...it's a date....



I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU ALL OVER AGAIN!
and whats more....

I'M IN LOVE WITH LIFE!


tomorrow...
demain...
morgen...
domani...
amanhã...
tomorrow!

:D

can you believe this is for real!?
like for ever truly real!

to think of a teenagers traumatic thoughts that run when she hears "this is the last time you will ever wash your hair like this. your scalp will never feel water again... ever"
thats nuts!

i had a great weekend! it was awesome!

to bad i didnt sleep over...

ps how the fuck do you draw precarious?!

see you later!